Category: the Rant Board
You could respond to this, you could not respond to this. I'm not looking for sympathy, attention or any of that shit, I just wanted to vent. Anyway, I've been living in Youthdale Residence for a year Feb. 4th. at first it was hard but then It began to get a bit easier, then suddenly, I don't know how it happened, or maybe I just don't want to remember, everything went straight to hell. The staf CYWs, Child and youth Workers sent me back to the TPU Transitional Psychiatric Unit. It's not as bad as it sounds. They didn't put me in a straight jacket or anything dumb like that. It was a place for youth in need of support. Young girls and boys who've been abused, have mood disorders, mental illnesses, kids who do drugs, alcohol, have extreme family issues and stuff go there, so they sent me. It'as a volintary place but I only did it out of obligatation. I still don't know why I'm writing this on a board but I don't care right now, I might later, I don't know, but the reason I'm angry is because I got put out of program this weekend for yelling at the staff who wouldn't leave me alone to do my homework and listen to my walkman. Now I'm on floor wich means I have to be on the same floor as a staff. I had house but they took it away for some lame reason. House means I could be anywhere in the house by myself. They've now threatened to send me back to "get my life in order". I can't listen to music for the next 2 days, can't watch TV, can't pretty much sneeze without them knowing. I'm never allowed to call anyone, be on the internet like I am now. It's resourse period and I have nothing to do so, yeah. I want to go home. I don't know where that is but I hate the group home. I hate people making big decissions for me all the time without me knowing, I hate the stupid not reasonable rules and I hate feeling like I'm trapped! I have to stay there for another year befor I move to texas with my dad, step mom and lil brother. The only thing keeping me in canada is my friends, school and my boyfriend. Screw my family here, they couldn't care less if I got hit by a car and screw the staff at my house who think they know everything about me.
hmmm, is this like a school your in or blind school or something? I don't understand. Who put you in there your family?
it's not a school, it's a group home. My family put me there. I go to a regular high school
Ohh please grow up you sound like a petulant child having a tantrum..I'm sure the traumatised people of the Philippines who lost everything including their children, in that dreadful mudslide, would love to listen to music to take their minds off the countless flasbacks and nightmares!.
Once again, Goblin graces us with hsi wisdom and bullshit views. Was the mudsldie a tragedity of course. But she's not allowed tospeak about somethign she's angry about? sorry didn't know you the Scottish Lush, needed to be consulted first.
Hey we all need to vent at one time or another. This may be her only way to do that, and if you don't like it, you don't have to read the post.
*HUGS* I hope it gets better for you, Janelle!
fuck off Goblin. Your an asshole, go fuck yourself. I just wanted to vent ok? And yeah, i didn't know how else to do it at the moment...thanks Ali.
And you proved my point effortlessly and childishly christ you belong in there mate. I really pity your parents, that they had to resort to sticking you in a mental hospital,still at least your doing your bit for society by being there.
Madame and yet again you grace me with your eloquence, I really wonder why you prefer to indulge this immature eejit with your time, I am sick and bloody tired of these petty childish idiots, with their heads rammed firmly up their tight american arses, moaning on about nothing at all,when the majority of them haven't bloody lived!
Not being able to listen to a cd player is not a tragedy..not being able to eat dying from hunger and cold is. This introverted cretin needs a good hard dose of reality, then maybe she would eventually,its more likely to be a miracle see the scope of her self obssesion.
erm what's the problem with venting? none.
Way to go Vel and LostGirl. Put him on Ignore. I have yet to see a constructive or coherent offering from him on these forums. And LostGirl, I am sorry to hear about this situation and hope it improves. The majority of us are here to listen!
yes the majority are there to absorb yet more attention seeking I rest my case.
ah for fuck sakes shut up. if you don't like it then pis off cause your comments aren't wanted or welcome. we all need abit of attention in our lives those that never do are dead. pure and simple. so get used to it. just remember how many people won't be coming to your aid should you ever need it because as far as we are concerned you don't need it.
um, isn't that the whole point of this board? to make yourself heard if your pissed off about something? Like most of the people who have posted a reply to your first post Lostgirl, i hope things work out for you, and just ignore any insensative comments.
You knew what they say about assueming. Your making an ass out of you and me...but more you. How do you know what I went through. It wasn't all my parents doing. It was just my dad and Child services. I got put there because I couldn't be with anyone else. My mother was abusive, she drank when she was and still a paranoid schitzophrenic on antidepressants, she didn't care about what she did and how it effected everyone else, on top of that, I pretty much had to raise my little brother while dealing with other shit. Goblin, I used to think people should cut you some slack but you really are a pathetic son of a bitch. You don't know even half of the things I went through, so you don't have a rite to say shit.
Ok LG I jumped the gun and lost the hied and I'm sorry for your pain what I said was wrong. However, there is a reason why.16 years ago I had a colossal breakdown and attempted suicide,sometimes what seems important to others seems petty to me, there might be a legitimate reason why you are denied your cd player, but its not a disaster.You need to get this into perspective, then you might begin to see that these people are only doing their best, so give them a chance, or feck knows where you might end up.
smile i hope it gets better none of these people will understand what your going through till there put there themselves go ahead and vent everyone needs to but not everyone can
goblen... appologizing? thats a first, lostgirl, I'm sorry for your pain. hugs. Poor thing.
Well once an asshole always an asshole
Hello lost girl.
I also hope things will work out for you.
I know exactly where you are coming from when you talk about people making dissisions for you.
I used to hate that too.
As for not beeing able to listen to your music, I also empathise.
From the time I was little untill the age of about 24 when I gained control of my own life I also loved listening to my music and would have considered it a tragedy if it was denyed me because while listening to music I could escape into a world of my own and I needed that because I also came from an abusive background and although my situation wasn't as bad as yours, it was still bad enough so that I wanted to escape once in a while.
My advice to you would be to prey if you believe in God. Tell him all your troubles and leave everything to him.
If you don' believe then still don't bottle it up.
Talk to someone and let the steem out.
Bottling it up will only harm you.
God bless,
Maria
It seems you're in some kind of Pyscatric ward or institute but in a program. Aren't these places suppose to counsel not play drill sargent? It sounds more like boot camp where you get the rough around and orders from the corrections office or something. It's a shame that you cannot speak for yourself. So I hope things get better for you.
I had an abusive parent and one who was an alcaholic. (Not sexual abuse mind you.) I've been through alcahol and drug issues as well as the whole breakdown and suicide attempt stuff. Once you get out of those negative situations that can lead you to that kind of behaviour, you can start to deal with those things in a more positive way. it's just that when you're going through it at the time, it seems like it will never end. Things will improve over time. Just hang in there man. *hugs*
Right now I haven't got time to read through all the posts here, but their may be more to the original post, we've only got the posters word for it that the events occured exactly as described. If you're in there to be rehabilitated, and you want to get out, you don't behave in a way that's going to make things worse for you. That's just plain common sense!
Hey hun try talking to the staff that is what i did I have been in units 18 times 17 of them as a miner one an adult I know its tough to not want to punch them but there there to listen ask them why you were sent there and what you can do to get your privilidges back and how you can improve things so you can leave. Its a bitch but i know you can do it
exactly wayne. if you dont like it when they take your cd player away, then don't do anything to piss them off! next time, try to think about how your actions could impact others, you'll get much further that way.